Maafkan aku Teman

Sekian lama aku menunggu
Tuk ucapkan kata-kata itu
Kata-kata bodoh yang tak memiliki arti
Yang kini aku sesali

Sampai kapan aku akan terus menunggu
Melepaskanku dari rasa bersalahku ini
Karena sikapmu kini berubah
Seolah aku adalah orang yang ingin kau hindari

Maafkan aku
Atas segala ucapanku kala itu
Maafkan aku
apt-cac

Aku menyesal teman
Berilah aku kesempatan
Untuk mewujudkan harapanku
Ketika dulu kita bisa saling bercanda
Seolah tak ada dinding pembatas antara kita
Aku tak ingin kehilanganmu
Karena tak ada mantan teman dalam kamusku

Pengalaman dari Kota Tua

Hari minggu kemarin, atau tepatnya tanggal 9 Nopember 2008, aku dan dua orang temanku (Hendy dan Irpan) mengadakan acara jalan-jalan ke Kota Tua. Berhubung disana sedang ada event, kami bertiga jadi cukup penasaran untuk datang. Agak-agak kecewa sih karena event nya nggak seperti yang kami bayangkan sebelumnya. Harusnya sih datangnya sehari sebelumnya, bukan hari Minggu nya. Karena katanya hari Sabtu acaranya lebih ramai dan lebih seru.

Berhubung nggak terlalu seru, kami memutuskan untuk berjalan-jalan ke area sekitar Kota Tua aja. Nggak kemana-mana sih, cuma di areal itu-itu saja.Toh, targetnya juga bisa foto-foto bangunan-bangunan tua di areal tersebut. Tapi rasanya lelah sekali. Dari acara kemarin, kami mendapat beberapa pengalaman berharga yang berhubungan dengan hobi fotografi kami bertiga:
• Memotret bangunan menggunakan lensa wide akan jauh lebih bagus dibandingkan dengan lensa kit, apalagi lensa tele. Dan sayangnya tidak satupun dari kami yang memiliki lensa wide angle. Irpan malah lebih parah. Lensa kitnya tidak dia bawa, malah membawa lensa tele Sigma 70-300mm. Mubazir deh.
• Lensa tele bisa digunakan di Kota Tua, asal ada modelnya, jadi ngambilnya dari jauh. Sayang sekali kami bertiga nggak punya modelnya. :P Padahal sebelumnya sudah mengajak teman-teman kuliah yang perempuan untuk datang. Sayangnya mental semua :(. Jadilah hasil foto-fotonya terasa ada yang kurang. Kecewa banget deh.
• Untuk event-event semacam ini, sepertinya memiliki lensa all-around adalah pilihan yang bagus. Sayangnya, harga lensa all-around Nikon 18-200mm cukup mahal. Dan masih mikir-mikir lagi belinya. Worth atau nggak ya???

Semoga ini semua bisa menjadi pengalaman yang berharga, sehingga pas balik lagi ke Kota Tua, at least udah punya lensa wide atau paling nggak ada modelnya lah yang bisa difoto.

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On Sunday afternoon, I noticed an interesting status on my YM. It came from one of my friend. It said: "Can't do any activity but net-ing, why there'll always be one day like this every month". Surely, I didn't know what it simply means in my friend's point of view. I don't want to judge anything. It was so interesting for me because it reflected and depicted the life I experienced at the end of last week. And I suppose, my real condition is even worse.

It is different when you said between "I couldn't do any activity" and "I didn't do any activity". Could not means, you were not able to do something, but basically you want to do it. But because you had something else to do, you had to prioritize it first and then you did the thing you desired to do. At least, at this circumstance, you have a will.

If you said "I didn't do any activity", in my opinion, it senses like you were not able to do something because you didn't know what you're supposed to do. It sound like a moron right? I said: you didn't know anything to do. What you've done is nothing at all and it's all useless.

I have been busy, but busy for nothing. I did a lot of things, but it's all useless (of course all of this refer to my opinion). I did not make any progress. It's really really disappointed me. My progress is even slower. And frankly, in my conclusion, my overall performance on last week was even worse compared to a week before.

Why it is so easy to be tempted by something. Which is not all of these things were good for me. Even I knew it's not good for me, but eventually I did it. Is it so odd to hear that someone did something useless, even he knew it was bad for him? I must have lost my mind then.

I wish, this week, I could be better. Hope Allah will bless me to do anything useful in my life. I don't expect to do something useless. It will only waste my time. I hope, at least at the end of this week I can say: "I didn't do anything useless". Yup, you can translated what it means. It has more than one meaning, depends on your point of view in seeing and understanding the sentence.