It's Inevitable

Hhh.. Sigh.. For these past several weeks, suddenly I felt something wrong about what I've done as my daily tasks on my current job. Frankly, this feeling has been filling my heart for longer than I could imagine. But, this feeling is getting stronger as the time went by. Turned me in distress.

It's not about the environment where I've been working for this past year. I've no problem with other colleagues worked on the same division of mine. It's all about my job and what I've been dealing with. Even I'm satisfied with it, but I sense it's wrong. Yeah, it's kind of hearing a perpetual truthful voice from my deepest heart and rang my head. And it's inevitable. I can't avoid it.

My job is dealing with content provider. Some of them are dishonest, in my point of view. They often harm our subscriber by taking their credit in 'dishonest' way. Even sometimes I monitor their traffic and found some fraudulent fact, again, it's inevitable. They are basically cleverer than us. There are usually able to discover a new way to make profit. Since our business model is revenue sharing, it doesn't matter when they gaining revenue by legal or illegal ways. These legal and illegal profit would be mixed and shared. And it's inevitable as well for we couldn't distinguish the sources.

Second thing, and the most need-to-be-considered is some of these content provider usually earning money from quizes. I have no idea why MUI doesn't prohibit this operation. Even it's not categorized as a gambling, I sense it as a easy way to earn a lot of money in a short time. I wouldn't talk about how much it dealt with. Too horrible to be imagined. It tends to educate people or subscriber to be consumptive and wasting their money. Moreover, it creates a new paradigm how to gain money in an easy and simple ways. Aargh, I couldn't bear it for any longer. Can't stop thinking why peoples are so greedy to achieve revenues. They couldn't say it's enough. Even it's more than enough, they said they need more and more.

Hhh.. I've come too far. I know it's wrong and against my will. I don't expect this. Ya Allah, please help me and ease my way in finding out the solution. I want everything to be done in a proper and right way.